From Gobble to Great

Hey Hey,

Yesterday the dreaded gobble monster got me. What to do about the gobble monster is a challenge in and of itself. Do I feed the monster a little or quit cold turkey and risk the monster rearing up and attacking food like a ravaging beast? Questions, questions, questions??? On the bright side...you know the silver lining...it wasn't good, but it could have been a whole lot worse that is for damn sure.

I still feel like I want to keep going and that continues to be a surprise. I can honestly admit that every year since my junior year of high school I have been telling myself that I was going to get healthy. Up until this time it had not stuck for more than a month or so baring that one episode of L.A. Weight Loss where I lasted 15 weeks. I could feel it wasn't going to work from the go on most of those tries.

I was great today except that slight case of nausea cause I didn't eat on time. :) I turned down cookies, Chinese food (love me some Chinese food), eating more when I knew I shouldn't.

Eureka...I think I figure it out...on days where my water intake is low like yesterday and Sunday...I eat, and eat, and eat, and eat...predominantly sugars and carbs like they are going out of style fast. On days like today where I drank a lot of water I can turn down food and eat healthy.

I am happy to announce that I actually did some exercise today. I did 25 minutes of Cardio Express Zumba then went out for a 30 minute walk around the block (approx 1.3 miles). Took me a long time to finally get going with the exercise.

Exercise related as I mentioned in a previous blog, I listen "Cutting the Fat Podcast" and they mentions a 30 Minutes for 30 Days Pledge...well tada...I am pledge...and for not other reason than that I want to...that come rain or shine, outside or in, feeling great or slightly under the weather...that I will walk for 30 Minutes for the Next 30 Days. So thanks to the co-creators of the blog for inspiring me to get myself moving.

Quote for this Entry:

Self-discipline is when you tell yourself to do something and you don't talk back. - W. K. Hope

Have a great wednesday...

HB

Daily is out...

Hey All,

I have decided to do away with naming my blogs by date. I am going to post when I can. Not to say that it won't be everyday, but I think that I will title my blog with how I am feeling or something other than just the plain old boring Daily blah blah.

Ate okay today. Had some sushi not much, but enough to get me by. Today was the first day I using my new scale (took pictures just got to get the connector for the camera to upload them).

I am going to do an entire post on the scale once I get the pics ready. I am excited about a scale...hmmm is that weird? I have also been thinking of other health oriented items.

Side note for folks. I am a dumb dumb some days. I washed and dried my pedometer. It is now in pedometer heaven. I couldn't believe it when it fell out of my jeans pocket. : (

This week I weigh 304.2 which is 5 less than 309.2 last week. My sister is down one pound from last week where she weighted in at 218.7. Chals hasn't weight in, but hopefully she is keeping it together and working on it.

Hmmm...I am wondering I only have a few followers or rather I like to think of you a blog friends cause I am not a cult leader and when I here the word followers I think of cults...I know I am weird no need to state it out loud, but I am wondering if any of you out there have advice for handling sugar cravings? Let me know maybe it will help me the next time my dreaded friend rolls into town.

Have a blessed night...

HB

Wow...9 days

Hey All,

Sorry to have been non-existent in the blog world for sooooo loooong. I was super behind in everything. I couldn't focus on not a one thing until yesterday. I don't know if this is too real for anyone out there, but having my period is not the norm for me, so I was wholly unprepared for the cravings. The week where mother nature decided to gift me with my period was HOOORRRIIIBBLLEEE! I feel it was that bad and want to mention again that it was horrible.

That was from Jan 30 - Feb 7.

Cravings...I was was drooling like a Saint Bernard over the Liliha Bakery counter, eyes just jumping from confection to confection. Don't know if it was that I hadn't had sugars (i.e. donuts and other sugary goodness) in a while, or if I was acting like a fat kid in a cake shop with unlimited access because of my period. I ain't not just a donut, but that and other sugary items and other carbs on that. It was sooo bad...but it tasted so good. Though looking back I do regret all that craziness.

Usually I put up my weekly info, but as you have noticed I missed last week (the close of the 5th week), but I did weigh in and I put on weight. Putting on weight wasn't a huge surprise, but the amount was. How is it that you can put on 6 pound in 7 days? I was bad, but damn I didn't think I was that bad.

On some exciting news I bought a new scale since my current one won't pick a weight and stick to it with in a 30 second time frame jumping with a gap of 10 to 12 pounds from one second to the next. I will put up more info on my newest weight loss item and some pics.

I am glad to be back on my eating healthy journey, and I am feeling better because of it. Not only did I not do so great from Jan 30 - 7, up until tonight I have been limiting my tv, absolutely no reading (which is even harder than not eating for me), blogging, and NOTHING else remotely enjoyable, but I had to do it cause I was trying to catch up. Catching up was taking up all my spare time. Behind in pre calc (in a huge way), behind in ACC 134 & ACC 137.

Happy to say that I am all caught up now. I just want to stay ahead in not just school but getting healthy. I hope everyone has been doing great in any and every aspect that they can. Be thankful for the little things. Even on days when I back pedal...I know that I have come a long way in only a measely 6 weeks.

Keep your eyes forward, head up, and feet moving toward your goals,

HB

Week 4 done on to Week 5

Hey Hey,

This weeks weight is from Friday, January 28, 2011 instead of Saturday, January 27, 2011 due to some traveling and not wanting to pack my scale in my suit case. I thought about it, but I didn't want it to push the weight of my bag over carry on status and I didn't want to pay to check it.

Chals didn't weigh in on Friday and as my sister tells it she didn't stop by or call on Saturday.

So the following information is Mine, Chals (non-existent info), & Hedz:

Beginning of Week 4	309	277.2	214.9
Goal for Week 4	-4		2
Actual for Week 4	-5.2		1.1
Ending for Week 4	303.8		216

Week 4 Reflections:

This week I am glad that I am back on the road to getting healthy. Won't lie somedays seem easier than others like anything else in life. I am still contemplating ways to make a change and what else might work for me in the long run. More things to think about...yay? No I like to think it just can get so crowded in my head that I wanna claw my brains out to shut the voices up.

Keep looking forward and taking small steps...slow and steady wins the race.

HB

The others may or may not add there two sense, but I wanted to notate mine for the future. I am hoping I won't need it, but you never know.

Daily - january 30, 2011

Hello...World,

Sunday was kinda a repeat of Saturday. Made some delicious yet unhealthy meal choices. Again with the great when I was eating and the not so great later. I don't think that had I been in a restaurant that I could have went to another day and ate at it again I would have needed to eat that many unhealthy items, but I might not get back to the the big island for like another 2 years, so I went a little over board on this one.

They say the first step in fixing a problem is admitting you have one. Hi, My name is Hillary and I have a real problem with eating and exercising. I am working on it, but it is definitely a process with many missteps along the way.

Rating for eating is 2 out of 10. Rating for exercise is 0 out of 10 as well. Got to get my as working on my journey again. Tomorrows another day. Had a few trips and stumbles, but I am gonna dust myself off and get back in the game.

Quote of the Day: Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. - Christopher Robin ( A.A. Milne)

Eyes Forward,

HB

Daily - January 29, 2011

Hello World,

Today was a disastrous. Still at a conference away from home and wholly unprepared for all it takes to stay on the changes that I have made when I am away from my comfort zone of the familiar. Yeah, I could have ate the salad or even a smaller portion of the humongous burger with all the fix'n's on it, but I didn't. I loved the taste and missed it. However after eating this meal I was definitely feeling it in the tummy, esophagus, and in my conscious. I regret eating it after the fact, but I have moved on from that meal. Just like I realized yesterday this is truly a learning experience in and of itself. Eating rating is at 3 out of 10 - cause I didn't eat like crap all day just the ending.

Had the plan in my head for the exercise, but my lazy ass ain't jumped on it yet. In all honesty I probably won't get to it until I get home and work it in my schedule. Rating remains at 0 out of 10.

Quote of the Day: Procrastination's is attitude's natural assassin. There's nothing so fatiguing as an uncompleted task. - William James

Wishing you nothing but the very best...

HB

Daily - January 28,2011

Hello Hello,

Today I am at a conference for work and school. I didn't expect that I would have such a rough time with the eating but I did. I did plan ahead for the fact that I would have immediate access to sources of healthy food...sad truth is that is no one's fault, but my own. I should of foreseen the obtacles that I would face.

Over all even with the 4 small slices of pizza I don't feel that I did horrible today, but I am almost 95% sure that it could have been better if I had pre-planned for this conference. This is the first time that I have been away from my home and in an area where I don't have immediate transportation and know my way around. Adjustments need to be made and I think that now that I know I can better anticipate my needs in the future.

A big thanks to my friends here with me who understood when I wasn't feeling well and when I was starting to feel the lack of energy and encouraging me to eat even though they and I agree that pizza isn't healthy, but that was the option and I did need to eat. A big thanks for have my back and helping me hold myself together. Rating on Eating is a 5 out of 10.

Exercise is on it's way tomorrow...look out for it cause I know that I sure will be. Don't expect a miracle or any thing epic this is going to start off slow and steady as not to loss motivation or wear myself out and give up. Rating still...0 out of 10.

On a side note I was going to bring my scale with me on this trip, but didn't want to way my luggage down and have to check it. So I weighed myself this morning when I woke up. I will be posting that tomorrow as usual after getting my sisters and chals info. It will probably late in the day or even the next all depending on what we are doing tomorrow.

Keep your goal in vision and see your self there.

Quote of the Day: People who want to move mountains must start by carrying away small stones. - No Author

Best Wishes to you and yours,

HB