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This year after so many other numerous new year resolutions of losing weight I am actually making a true leap to really get there. I have always been over weight. The last time I was any where near the weight I was supposed to be was 3rd grade. In my sophomore year of High School I weighed 232 lbs. In 2004 I weighed 287 lbs. Now I weigh 324 lbs. At my most I was 338 lbs.

I am going to use this blog as a way for me to track my ups and downs and find out what really works for me. I am not trying anyone type of diet, but rather searching through them all and pulling what I can use to stay healthy for the rest of my life. This isn't going to be a get thin in 6 month trip...the things I do have to last in the long-term or I will end up quitting and ending up right back where I started or worse off.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Not Sure If...

So it is the second week in to my recommitting to getting healthy, and I have been feeling extremely moody, anxiety ridden, and slightly depressed. I feel on the urge of tears, disappointed in myself for the stuff I know I should be doing, but am not. Could it be a whole lot worse where I am eating fast food, and doing nothing...Yes! That is not what I am doing, but then I feel like I should be able to do things it is just never the right time.

Man, if life were easy. To be carefree and living life. Last time I felt like that was when I was in 3rd grade or younger, and even then life wasn't all it should have been for a little girl of that age. I can't tell you how much feeling blue just adds fuel to the fire and makes me even more blue.

I logically know that I shouldn't feel sad and slightly crazy, but some days I just can't help it it is just too much.

Tomorrow it will get better and I will feel better too.


1 comment:

  1. I know the feeling! I just want you to know that you are not alone. Clearly, we have to be each others support system. You know, you always have me to talk too and vise versa. Call, text, email, drive by, whatevers....just let me know and I'll be there.