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This year after so many other numerous new year resolutions of losing weight I am actually making a true leap to really get there. I have always been over weight. The last time I was any where near the weight I was supposed to be was 3rd grade. In my sophomore year of High School I weighed 232 lbs. In 2004 I weighed 287 lbs. Now I weigh 324 lbs. At my most I was 338 lbs.

I am going to use this blog as a way for me to track my ups and downs and find out what really works for me. I am not trying anyone type of diet, but rather searching through them all and pulling what I can use to stay healthy for the rest of my life. This isn't going to be a get thin in 6 month trip...the things I do have to last in the long-term or I will end up quitting and ending up right back where I started or worse off.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Dazed and Confused

Hey All,

It's been a long while since I have not only the time but the drive to blog. Not that I don't like doing it...just been at a loss for what to say about what is going on with me at this time.

I am telling my self baby steps are the way to go right now. Making a list and sticking to it in the hopes that at the end of the day I don't want to pull my hair out, curl up in bed and feel like crying my eyes out cause I am so frustrated with...? I can't even give name to what is going on with me at this moment.

I am sad, scared, panicking...what is it...GRRRRRR! How can I work through it if I can't readily pinpoint what is going on with me.

Is it my end of period drama's that have me feeling like I could lose it at any moment. Trust when I say when I lose it...I lose it big. Temper...temper. I got a hold of that a while back, but because I often hold things in when I blow up it isn't just about that one incident. No it is about every incident under the sun that hasn't been voiced and put into words that is related to the last thing to set me off.

My moods and stress level have been hell on my getting healthy journey. Won't say I have given up cause even when I am eating bad food I got that voice in my head (not as loud as it used to be) telling me I know I should be eating that. I just ain't had the drive to stop my self.

I am gonna get back on it though. Gotta get moving on my lists cause I have been majorly forgetful and confused as of late. That hasn't happened for a long while.

I am gonna get back to it. Though I am having more than a few rough patches...I hope all of you out there working on your very own journey's are finding you path a lot less complicated and rough than mine.

Best Wishes,


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