Bad News Brings Realization

I feel blessed that in my 26 years I have only lost one person to the great beyond because I know that some people experience it a lot more frequently.

A little back story...My grandmother was the glue that held everything together. I battled severe depression, anxiety, self injury, and many hours, days, and months where I thought about taking my own life this was from a young age. I was so tired. In all aspects of my life that not waking up sometimes felt like a better options. Thankfully I got a lot of couch time with my psychologist and psychiatrist and was able to function better after a while. I didn't truly get a good grip on life until 2005 when the sun in my solar system wasn't there anymore. My grandmother was in all aspect my mother, friend, mentor, and constant cheerleader. She made me wanna live and when her life ended it made me want to live even more because how could I contemplate taking my own life or laying by the way side when she had believed so much in me and spent so much time, energy, and love on showing my the right way and pushing me along. This is not to say that I don't struggle mentally and emotionally, but she continues to me a large part of every breath I take.

Unfortunately my family was in for another shock when my auntie was diagnosed with stage four cancer and told that it was likely terminal on July 24, 2011. She is 49 years old! She and my uncle adopted two young children who are both under the age of 7. To say that you just don't see something like this coming is an understatement.

At this point it is in her intestines, pancreas, appendix (ruptured) and her lung. She has been sick, but they never checked for cancer as a cause. They found the lump when they went in to remove her appendix.

As I sat talking to my family in Honolulu, Hawaii from Oklahoma I knew that I needed to be home, so I am cutting my trip short and going home. My cousin, sister, and I all talked and expressed our concerns for her, but it also brought about a realization that made us look within. I am angry at how cavalier I have been about the state of my health. Always another tomorrow to get healthy, next month is that month when I am gonna get things done. My past is the past and I know I can't change it. I continue to be thankful to be on my way to getting healthy and making great strides, but it still makes me think...wow...all that time I should have been doing it.

My auntie is a fighter and she isn't throwing in the towel or hanging her head. She isn't giving up because she has so much to live for. She told my other aunt that she is gonna give this fight all she has because isn't ready to die.

I find myself wanting to make sure that I am fighting. Wanting to fight for my own health even harder, and not just my health I want to be healthy in all aspects of my life. Point blank...I wanna live my life boldly and bravely. Making choice for myself that make me happy and push me forward.

I know that even when I struggle to make it through the day, that when I have my period and my emotions get wonky that I am gonna stick this out. It isn't just losing weight...it is about living life and making the choices that allow me to live a long, happy, healthy and prosperous life. I hope everyone out there whether this is your first time, your twentieth attempt, whether you need to lose 5 lbs or 400lbs...stop putting things off to tomorrow because as logical it is we sometimes forget that tomorrow isn't guaranteed. The next minute isn't guaranteed. Live your life to the best of your abilities, push hard to get where you want to be, love everyone in your life, and make sure they know it. Take nothing for granted.

I will be thinking nothing, but positive thoughts for my auntie, if you have the chance your positive thoughts and prayers would be greatly appreciated.

I hope everyone has a blessed rest of the week.

A little lost...

Hey Hey,

On Saturday after my walk...I had some severe back pain that just killed my motivation to exercise. Sunday...nope. Monday...nope. Tomorrow I am getting back up and moving. Changed the program slightly from last week to hopefully be able to fit it back into my life at home in Hawaii. I will be evaluating my week and program on Sunday's from here on out.

Sunday: Rest

Monday: Just Changed It

Tuesday: Full Body Strength Training

Wednesday: Zumba Activate DVD - Interval type - One on Song On-One Song doing salsa side

Thursday: Full Body Strength Training

Friday: Zumba Activate DVD - Interval type - One on Song On-One Song doing salsa side

Saturday: Full Body Strength Training

My walking will be optional with a max of 20 minutes because I am increasing Zumba, and when walking I have two options...walk super late being leaving out at almost 9pm at night or leaving the house at 4:30am in the morning. Yuck to the morning one...and working out in the evening just ain't working for me.

Have a blessed week.~.~.~.~

OMFG Popeye's WTF!

So my sister wanted to eat out a few nights ago. She thought about KFC, so my fingers were flying trying to figure out what I could eat from KFC:

Grilled Chicken Thigh = 170 cal, Grilled Chicken Drum Stick = 90 cal, Mashed Potatos without Gravy = 90, & Green Beans = 25,

Total Calories = 375

Then she was like wait maybe I wanna eat Church's Chicken, so again my fingers are flying to figure out what I could eat from Church's Chicken

Two Chicken Tenders Strips = 240, Mashed Potato without Gravy = 80, Green Beans = 35

Total Calories = 355

In the end she is like lets go I wanna eat at Popeye's...I was like you said Church's. She is like no I told you Popeye's. I was like whatever just let me check on the calories, so I know what I can eat from there. After looking at the nutritional values

Chicken & Sausage Jambalaya = 220, Cajun Rice = 170

So off we went and I order just that. When we got back before I ate anything...I was like...I should enter this in to sparks first. So as I was entering them in I was like wait...the calorie differential and size of these two items is too drastic. So I did a search on google on Popeye's Chicken & Sausage Jambalaya. Thanks to www.caloriecount.com I discovered that though on their nutritional facts sheet every thing else is size by how they sell it not those items listed under Big Easy no what I got was 3 of the serving of what I thought.

Thank goodness for sparks and all the encouraging to track and check on what I am eating. Instead of the 660 calories that I bought. I made the choice though it tasted create to only eat half of it for 330 calories.

Just to make it perfectly clear of the difference in what was listed and what you buy

Listed

Weight 151, Calories 220, Fat 11, Sat. Fat 3, Cholesterol 32, Sodium 760, Carbs 20, Dietary Fiber 1, Sugar 0, Protein 10

What you get through the drive thru when you order it

Weight 453, Calories 660, Fat 33, Sat. Fat 9, Cholesterol 96, Sodium 2280, Carbs 60, Dietary Fiber 3, Sugar 0, Protein 30

Yeah once again thank goodness that I had the forethought to questions it. Popeye's you tricky place.

Hope this never happens to any of you.

Sparks: 7/10 - 7/16/2011

This weeks program just to keep track of what I am looking to accomplish

Nutrition:

Continue to track all food and beverage through sparks to the very best of my ability.

Fitness:

Track Fitness in the sparks system.

Sparks System Setting

Strength Training: M T W TR F S

Cardio: MWF

What I am looking to get done this week

Sunday: Rest

Monday: Zumba (min 20min), Upper Body Strength Training, Walking (min/max 45 min)

Tuesday: Zumba (min 20min), Lower Body Strength Training, Walking (min/max 45 min)

Wednesday: Zumba (min 20min), Core Strength Training, Walking (min/max 45 min)

Thursday: Zumba (min 20min), Upper Body Strength Training, Walking (min/max 45 min)

Friday: Zumba (min 20min), Lower Body Strength Training, Walking (min/max 45 min)

Saturday: Zumba (min 20min), Core Body Strength Training, Walking (min/max 45 min)

I will let you all know how it goes and how I am feeling along the way.

The Spark

I originally joined sparkpeople.com back in August 4, 2009. Unfortunately I didn't do jack shit with it. To my detriment of course. I can't say that my actually using the program back then would have done any good. The would've, should've, could've's and all that, but I have recently become active at the site after almost two years of leaving it dormant.

The sparkpeople program has a lot of benefits in the nutrition, fitness, tracking, and community avenues. I am slowly walking this road and have had to reexamine my original goals that I set up in January. The original goals aren't lofty or unrealistic, but perhaps I just didn't posses all that I should have.

I feel more connected by using sparkpeople.com. I am on teams with other people who are walking the same path that I am. Who will probably go through the same set backs that I will and I like that alot. The not feeling alone part has really given me a new vision to work towards.

I recently purchased The Spark by Chris Downie in the kindle version on amazon.com for $1.99. What a deal. I am a nook girl myself, but I wanted to save money, so I just downloaded it on my phone. Great investment so far.

My goals are completely set, but I wanted to post about my new (well new as in using it) pathway that I found in sparkpeople.com. More on the program to come in a later post.

Motivational Quote from http://choicequotations.com:

People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.

Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

Live, Love, and Laugh...Often,

HB

Not Sure If...

So it is the second week in to my recommitting to getting healthy, and I have been feeling extremely moody, anxiety ridden, and slightly depressed. I feel on the urge of tears, disappointed in myself for the stuff I know I should be doing, but am not. Could it be a whole lot worse where I am eating fast food, and doing nothing...Yes! That is not what I am doing, but then I feel like I should be able to do things it is just never the right time.

Man, if life were easy. To be carefree and living life. Last time I felt like that was when I was in 3rd grade or younger, and even then life wasn't all it should have been for a little girl of that age. I can't tell you how much feeling blue just adds fuel to the fire and makes me even more blue.

I logically know that I shouldn't feel sad and slightly crazy, but some days I just can't help it it is just too much.

Tomorrow it will get better and I will feel better too.

HB

Six Flags damn near killed me...

Wow who would have thought a fun day with the family would end with me having chest pain and anxiety.

My sisters husband decided he wanted to spend the entire day there. So we left Lawton, OK for Arlington, TX at 6AMish. We hit the park at 10AM when it opened. I had pre-decided I would not be riding any of the rides even thought I paid $35 to get in. Sad for me kinda.

I am not comfortable at my size riding those rides whether the harness is a pole pushing into my stomach or a harness that comes down over my chest - which I have experienced and it wasn't pleasant with how big my breast are.

Traveling is not conducive to eating healthy. For breakfast I had a breakfast jack (jack in the box) and took off the bottom bun, but in the park the picking were fatty as can be. So it was a panda's express plate that I split between lunch and dinner.

By the end of the day...I was exhausted, sore, and my back and chest were tightening up and my arm was going numb. I don't like when that happens cause I know that some of those sign are precursors of a heart attack which kicks in my anxiety which makes it even worse. We finally left the park at 7PMish with a almost 4 hour drive home.

I am glad I went, but ever since then I have been having a hard time getting around to doing anything fitness like.

Hopefully I get back on it. What do you do when you don't want to work out?

Too tired to cook...

Cooking didn't work out unfortunately. Stayed up way to late and ended up sleeping most of the day away. So it was salad and chix for dinner.

I will be away for a bit in the upcoming weeks, but I will still be working on this journey of mine and taking it one meal at a time as I go.

HB

Trying New Things

Hey All,

Ohhh...this is like my first ever super short blog...I have decided that I want to try a new low cal, low fat dish that I found on the net. Don't know exactly which one yet, but I will post after I actually go out and get the ingredients tomorrow.

It will be buffalo chicken or double-spinach mushroom casserole either one with a salad.

Hopefully which ever one is good.

HB

McDonald's, Walking, & Scales?

Hey All,

My sister asked me to drive to McDonald's for her today. First thought...I ain't gonna lie...what can I get & why can't you go? Then I took a second and regrouped. Remembered that it was my choice. So I got up got my bottle of water and an apple and went out and got her and my nephews food.

I am proud of being able to overcome my first instinct. I am the first person to say follow your first instinct in most circumstances, but unfortunately my first instinct when it comes to food right now is GOBBLE GOBBLE. So I can take the second instinct that says think before you eat.

I am still working it one meal at a time, but whatever works.

Surprises of surprises I actually went walking today. It was only 20 minutes, but it is a start.

I think that I have to buy another scales as my sister doesn't own one. There ain't no GNC anywhere round here with a scale, and how am I supposed to track or even know my exact weight right now with out one. Not to mention that my sisters need to get healthy too, so they can keep it up here with them when I leave and put it to good use.

HB

One meal at a time...

At this point in my journey I am way behind and not pushing myself. I looked into Food Addict Anonymous and will do some further research to see if there is anything within that program that can benefit me.

I have come to the realization that I have a problem with eating and food in general. I have joked about it before, but it really isn't a joke any longer. When food becomes your everything what else do you have to look forward to.

Food is a coping skill. Cause just like with any other type of drug out there for addicts it is there when you needs it, through the good, the bad, and the plain ugly you can turn to your crutch and there it waits.

Food was the one and only thing that I thought I was in control of through out my life, but unfortunately that was an illusion. I never had control over my eating, or I would have been able to call it quits long ago...like 150 pounds ago. I am sad that it took me this long to really realize what a problem it truly is.

At this point in my life food doesn't have the same effect it had when I was younger. When I eat I don't get happy, but at this point my mind is so used to stuffy my face - ain't got nothing going on...food, just got some bad news...food, mad at a situation...food, celebrating...food. Food, food, food.

I told my sister today, when thinking about food and eating that we shouldn't focus on more than one day of eating at a time. My reasoning is this. Right now in this moment when I think about eating healthy for that rest of my life...I am not excited about it or happy to be thinking it. In fact it makes me doubt that fact that I can keep it up and makes me doubt myself. The way I am eating is different, strange, and weird compared to what I used to eat like. My body craves cake, donuts, french fries, malasadas, fried rice, pastas, brownies, boneless buffalo wings, ice cream, jelly beans and other not so healthy food -just to name a few.

So for now looking forward is detrimental to my focus. One meal at a time is how I have decided to make my choices. Because right now in this moment yeah eating healthy in the future makes me sad, but if I keep going one meal at a time for a while at some point eating healthy with become my default mind set and forecasting a healthy life style in the future with feel like the norm.

I wish you all the luck with all you have going for you and if you ain't got nothing going right now. What are you waiting for?

HB

It's a Choice

There are two theories so far:

1. I should make changes, but make them slowly, and don't abstain from all of the bad stuff, i.e. sugar and carbs).

2. Do my best to abstain from the bad stuff and make the healthy choice every time I have the choice (which is almost every time if I plan for it).

Which is right for me? I have the feeling that their is no one plan, activity, or lifestyle change that will work for everyone, or even a large group of folks.

I started out the year by doing my best to choose the healthy alternatives, walking, and really pushing myself. That lasted for about 2 months before I tripped up and fell back on old habits. I have tried and tripped up over and over again. Though getting healthy is definitely still in my thoughts.

Currently I am coming to the realization that I need to be conscious of my decisions. Yesterday, I decided that I would do what ever it was I needed to do to make the choices good ones for myself. On the back side of my right hand between my thumb and forefinger I have written the phrase "IT'S A CHOICE!" So that it is right there every time I look at my hand. So far it is helping me stay conscious of my food choices.

Still got a lot to get right with, but for right now I am taking it one meal at a time. I hope every one out there are taking the steps they need to to get where they want to be.

HB

At a standstill...

Hey All,

At a loss for what I should do. Can't seem to stop eating. I am away from home right now and I am not sure whether that is affecting my eating or if it is all for crap.

I have been really feeling like shit about it. Which of course makes it worse. Can't seem to eat at the right interval or the right stuff.

On another not...I watched that new Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition. It just premiered on ABC. I can't say that it was the best show but I would watch it again every once in a while.

You know what kinda show I wanna see. I wanna see Weight loss on a budget...DAMN IT ALL. I know that I can't afford gym memberships, personal trainers, and buying all the healthy food that I should. Some of the shows even revolve around going to a rehab type setting.

I don't think that the average person - especially those that are students - can pay for all that to make a go at losing weight.

Any idea about how I might change my eating habits for the better would be greatly appreciated. Or any advice what so ever would be great.

HB

Ohhh...the Struggle - 3.25.11

Hey Hey Hey,

The whole truth, and nothing but the truth. I have been a horrible eater and a horrendous procrastinator to the extreme. Frustration and any other emotion leads me down the road to temptation. Sure I could say no, but then I would change my mind 5 minutes later and make a b-line on to bad bad foods! Examples...fast food restaurants, cake, more cake, donuts, pizza...in other terms carbs and sugars...yum yum but aggravating that I didn't say NO!

I am going to weigh in tomorrow and I expect that I will have put on weight since the last time. I have been weighing off and on through this large gap of struggle. Yeah and the scale don't lie...I put on some weight.

I did relatively great today. I drank 6 - 16 OZ bottles of water, ate at the right intervals. So all in all I am proud of accomplishing just that. Won't say it wasn't a huge struggle to not eat out, eat alot, and eat sugar, sugar, and more sugar. The cake was a call'n me this evening, and it still is call'n but the voices have gotten a little softer. Still there though.

So here's to getting back on the getting healthy wagon. I tripped, but I am getting back up and looking at where I am going hoping not to trip again.

Until tomorrow...hope everyone out there is keeping up with what they are trying to achieve in there own lives.

Best Wishes to you all,

HB

Dazed and Confused

Hey All,

It's been a long while since I have not only the time but the drive to blog. Not that I don't like doing it...just been at a loss for what to say about what is going on with me at this time.

I am telling my self baby steps are the way to go right now. Making a list and sticking to it in the hopes that at the end of the day I don't want to pull my hair out, curl up in bed and feel like crying my eyes out cause I am so frustrated with...? I can't even give name to what is going on with me at this moment.

I am sad, scared, panicking...what is it...GRRRRRR! How can I work through it if I can't readily pinpoint what is going on with me.

Is it my end of period drama's that have me feeling like I could lose it at any moment. Trust when I say when I lose it...I lose it big. Temper...temper. I got a hold of that a while back, but because I often hold things in when I blow up it isn't just about that one incident. No it is about every incident under the sun that hasn't been voiced and put into words that is related to the last thing to set me off.

My moods and stress level have been hell on my getting healthy journey. Won't say I have given up cause even when I am eating bad food I got that voice in my head (not as loud as it used to be) telling me I know I should be eating that. I just ain't had the drive to stop my self.

I am gonna get back on it though. Gotta get moving on my lists cause I have been majorly forgetful and confused as of late. That hasn't happened for a long while.

I am gonna get back to it. Though I am having more than a few rough patches...I hope all of you out there working on your very own journey's are finding you path a lot less complicated and rough than mine.

Best Wishes,

HB

From Gobble to Great

Hey Hey,

Yesterday the dreaded gobble monster got me. What to do about the gobble monster is a challenge in and of itself. Do I feed the monster a little or quit cold turkey and risk the monster rearing up and attacking food like a ravaging beast? Questions, questions, questions??? On the bright side...you know the silver lining...it wasn't good, but it could have been a whole lot worse that is for damn sure.

I still feel like I want to keep going and that continues to be a surprise. I can honestly admit that every year since my junior year of high school I have been telling myself that I was going to get healthy. Up until this time it had not stuck for more than a month or so baring that one episode of L.A. Weight Loss where I lasted 15 weeks. I could feel it wasn't going to work from the go on most of those tries.

I was great today except that slight case of nausea cause I didn't eat on time. :) I turned down cookies, Chinese food (love me some Chinese food), eating more when I knew I shouldn't.

Eureka...I think I figure it out...on days where my water intake is low like yesterday and Sunday...I eat, and eat, and eat, and eat...predominantly sugars and carbs like they are going out of style fast. On days like today where I drank a lot of water I can turn down food and eat healthy.

I am happy to announce that I actually did some exercise today. I did 25 minutes of Cardio Express Zumba then went out for a 30 minute walk around the block (approx 1.3 miles). Took me a long time to finally get going with the exercise.

Exercise related as I mentioned in a previous blog, I listen "Cutting the Fat Podcast" and they mentions a 30 Minutes for 30 Days Pledge...well tada...I am pledge...and for not other reason than that I want to...that come rain or shine, outside or in, feeling great or slightly under the weather...that I will walk for 30 Minutes for the Next 30 Days. So thanks to the co-creators of the blog for inspiring me to get myself moving.

Quote for this Entry:

Self-discipline is when you tell yourself to do something and you don't talk back. - W. K. Hope

Have a great wednesday...

HB

Daily is out...

Hey All,

I have decided to do away with naming my blogs by date. I am going to post when I can. Not to say that it won't be everyday, but I think that I will title my blog with how I am feeling or something other than just the plain old boring Daily blah blah.

Ate okay today. Had some sushi not much, but enough to get me by. Today was the first day I using my new scale (took pictures just got to get the connector for the camera to upload them).

I am going to do an entire post on the scale once I get the pics ready. I am excited about a scale...hmmm is that weird? I have also been thinking of other health oriented items.

Side note for folks. I am a dumb dumb some days. I washed and dried my pedometer. It is now in pedometer heaven. I couldn't believe it when it fell out of my jeans pocket. : (

This week I weigh 304.2 which is 5 less than 309.2 last week. My sister is down one pound from last week where she weighted in at 218.7. Chals hasn't weight in, but hopefully she is keeping it together and working on it.

Hmmm...I am wondering I only have a few followers or rather I like to think of you a blog friends cause I am not a cult leader and when I here the word followers I think of cults...I know I am weird no need to state it out loud, but I am wondering if any of you out there have advice for handling sugar cravings? Let me know maybe it will help me the next time my dreaded friend rolls into town.

Have a blessed night...

HB

Wow...9 days

Hey All,

Sorry to have been non-existent in the blog world for sooooo loooong. I was super behind in everything. I couldn't focus on not a one thing until yesterday. I don't know if this is too real for anyone out there, but having my period is not the norm for me, so I was wholly unprepared for the cravings. The week where mother nature decided to gift me with my period was HOOORRRIIIBBLLEEE! I feel it was that bad and want to mention again that it was horrible.

That was from Jan 30 - Feb 7.

Cravings...I was was drooling like a Saint Bernard over the Liliha Bakery counter, eyes just jumping from confection to confection. Don't know if it was that I hadn't had sugars (i.e. donuts and other sugary goodness) in a while, or if I was acting like a fat kid in a cake shop with unlimited access because of my period. I ain't not just a donut, but that and other sugary items and other carbs on that. It was sooo bad...but it tasted so good. Though looking back I do regret all that craziness.

Usually I put up my weekly info, but as you have noticed I missed last week (the close of the 5th week), but I did weigh in and I put on weight. Putting on weight wasn't a huge surprise, but the amount was. How is it that you can put on 6 pound in 7 days? I was bad, but damn I didn't think I was that bad.

On some exciting news I bought a new scale since my current one won't pick a weight and stick to it with in a 30 second time frame jumping with a gap of 10 to 12 pounds from one second to the next. I will put up more info on my newest weight loss item and some pics.

I am glad to be back on my eating healthy journey, and I am feeling better because of it. Not only did I not do so great from Jan 30 - 7, up until tonight I have been limiting my tv, absolutely no reading (which is even harder than not eating for me), blogging, and NOTHING else remotely enjoyable, but I had to do it cause I was trying to catch up. Catching up was taking up all my spare time. Behind in pre calc (in a huge way), behind in ACC 134 & ACC 137.

Happy to say that I am all caught up now. I just want to stay ahead in not just school but getting healthy. I hope everyone has been doing great in any and every aspect that they can. Be thankful for the little things. Even on days when I back pedal...I know that I have come a long way in only a measely 6 weeks.

Keep your eyes forward, head up, and feet moving toward your goals,

HB

Week 4 done on to Week 5

Hey Hey,

This weeks weight is from Friday, January 28, 2011 instead of Saturday, January 27, 2011 due to some traveling and not wanting to pack my scale in my suit case. I thought about it, but I didn't want it to push the weight of my bag over carry on status and I didn't want to pay to check it.

Chals didn't weigh in on Friday and as my sister tells it she didn't stop by or call on Saturday.

So the following information is Mine, Chals (non-existent info), & Hedz:

Beginning of Week 4	309	277.2	214.9
Goal for Week 4	-4		2
Actual for Week 4	-5.2		1.1
Ending for Week 4	303.8		216

Week 4 Reflections:

This week I am glad that I am back on the road to getting healthy. Won't lie somedays seem easier than others like anything else in life. I am still contemplating ways to make a change and what else might work for me in the long run. More things to think about...yay? No I like to think it just can get so crowded in my head that I wanna claw my brains out to shut the voices up.

Keep looking forward and taking small steps...slow and steady wins the race.

HB

The others may or may not add there two sense, but I wanted to notate mine for the future. I am hoping I won't need it, but you never know.

Daily - january 30, 2011

Hello...World,

Sunday was kinda a repeat of Saturday. Made some delicious yet unhealthy meal choices. Again with the great when I was eating and the not so great later. I don't think that had I been in a restaurant that I could have went to another day and ate at it again I would have needed to eat that many unhealthy items, but I might not get back to the the big island for like another 2 years, so I went a little over board on this one.

They say the first step in fixing a problem is admitting you have one. Hi, My name is Hillary and I have a real problem with eating and exercising. I am working on it, but it is definitely a process with many missteps along the way.

Rating for eating is 2 out of 10. Rating for exercise is 0 out of 10 as well. Got to get my as working on my journey again. Tomorrows another day. Had a few trips and stumbles, but I am gonna dust myself off and get back in the game.

Quote of the Day: Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. - Christopher Robin ( A.A. Milne)

Eyes Forward,

HB

Daily - January 29, 2011

Hello World,

Today was a disastrous. Still at a conference away from home and wholly unprepared for all it takes to stay on the changes that I have made when I am away from my comfort zone of the familiar. Yeah, I could have ate the salad or even a smaller portion of the humongous burger with all the fix'n's on it, but I didn't. I loved the taste and missed it. However after eating this meal I was definitely feeling it in the tummy, esophagus, and in my conscious. I regret eating it after the fact, but I have moved on from that meal. Just like I realized yesterday this is truly a learning experience in and of itself. Eating rating is at 3 out of 10 - cause I didn't eat like crap all day just the ending.

Had the plan in my head for the exercise, but my lazy ass ain't jumped on it yet. In all honesty I probably won't get to it until I get home and work it in my schedule. Rating remains at 0 out of 10.

Quote of the Day: Procrastination's is attitude's natural assassin. There's nothing so fatiguing as an uncompleted task. - William James

Wishing you nothing but the very best...

HB

Daily - January 28,2011

Hello Hello,

Today I am at a conference for work and school. I didn't expect that I would have such a rough time with the eating but I did. I did plan ahead for the fact that I would have immediate access to sources of healthy food...sad truth is that is no one's fault, but my own. I should of foreseen the obtacles that I would face.

Over all even with the 4 small slices of pizza I don't feel that I did horrible today, but I am almost 95% sure that it could have been better if I had pre-planned for this conference. This is the first time that I have been away from my home and in an area where I don't have immediate transportation and know my way around. Adjustments need to be made and I think that now that I know I can better anticipate my needs in the future.

A big thanks to my friends here with me who understood when I wasn't feeling well and when I was starting to feel the lack of energy and encouraging me to eat even though they and I agree that pizza isn't healthy, but that was the option and I did need to eat. A big thanks for have my back and helping me hold myself together. Rating on Eating is a 5 out of 10.

Exercise is on it's way tomorrow...look out for it cause I know that I sure will be. Don't expect a miracle or any thing epic this is going to start off slow and steady as not to loss motivation or wear myself out and give up. Rating still...0 out of 10.

On a side note I was going to bring my scale with me on this trip, but didn't want to way my luggage down and have to check it. So I weighed myself this morning when I woke up. I will be posting that tomorrow as usual after getting my sisters and chals info. It will probably late in the day or even the next all depending on what we are doing tomorrow.

Keep your goal in vision and see your self there.

Quote of the Day: People who want to move mountains must start by carrying away small stones. - No Author

Best Wishes to you and yours,

HB

Daily - January 27, 2011

Hello Hello,

Another great day of eating healthy and moving forward with fresh outlook. I did real well today and have some thought in my head for the upcoming days. Rating on Eating is 6 out of 10.

I am about to head out on a conference with my fellow team members from school. So I have decided that...though I won't be bringing my scale with me that I am going to weigh in tomorrow rather than weighing in on Monday morning. I was a little freaked about the not being able to weigh in on time, but I have made a choice and will stick by it.

Exercise - 0 out of 10 - is in the works as I will be spending some time on the web reading up and making a plan that I can follow without becoming some psycho crazy gobble food monster cause I frustrate myself.

Quote of the Day: People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is light from within. - Elizabeth Kubler-Ross

Look for the light within...

HB

Daily - January 26, 2011

Helllooo,

Eating today has gone smoothly. Ate at the right times and felt better because of it. I wasn't nausea's from the vitamins anymore...thank goodness for that. All the nausea was pushing me towards not taking them any longer. Eating Rating is 6 out of 10

Not only did I eat healthy food, but I feel better mentally...like I am getting back on track and moving forward a little lighter in spirit, emotion, and mentally. What a difference a day makes.

Exercise is still in progress and will hopefully be coming soon 0 out of 10.

On another note I have been listening to a podcast that I downloaded from itunes around the first of the year. I love it. They tell you great stuff, really know what they are talking about, and make me wanna learn more on my own. The podcast is titled "Cut the Fat Weight Loss Podcast." You can download it on itunes.

Quote of the Day: Our plans miscarry because they have no aim. When a man does not know what harbor he is making for, no wind is the right wind. - Seneca

Hope everyone is moving slowly, but surly toward their very own goals and journey's.

HB

Daily - January 25, 2011

Hey Hey,

Eating today went well compared to the other few days. The vitamins are still making me hellaciously nausea's, but I think that my body will overcome that in the long run. I have never took vitamins such as the one that I bought. I mean I have taken...One a Day: Women. Those made me nausea's for the first day, but then I felt fine. I am hoping the ones I am taking from GNC will balance out in my system soon.

I ate healthy food, but my intervals don't jive because I really should eat before I go to my class so that when I get back I don't have the stirrings of a headache coming on and feel like I want to gobble up everything in sight. My Rating for Eating is 6 out of 10 and though I ate healthy; the rating isn't higher because of the intervals of when I chose to eat.

Exercise rating is 0 out of 10. Still gotta get that plan going. Aggravating as exercise can sometimes be I know that it is a necessary activity for getting and maintaining health.

Quote of the Day: No horse gets anywhere until he is harnessed. No Stream or gas drives anything until it is confined. No Niagara is ever turned into light and power until it is tunneled. No life ever grows great until it is focused, dedicated, disciplined. - Harry Emerson Fosdick

Wishing the best for you and yours,

HB

Daily - January 24, 2011

Hey Hey,

Eating wasn't so bad today for the most part I ate relatively healthy foods...I did eat some rather unhealthy foods towards that end of the day. :(

I need to pre-plan things better. I think that is one of the harder things I am trying to do. If I don't have a plan then things go awry pretty often. Eating is a 4 out of 10 because of the unhealthy food that I consumed towards the end of the day.

Exercise rating is 0 out of 10. I need to really work on planning for not only my exercise but for my eating. Must work, work, work on these for the upcoming week.

Quote of the Day: Nothing in the world can take the place of Persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan 'Press On' has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race. - Calvin Coolidge

Have a great week.

HB

Daily - January 23, 2011

Hey Hey,

Again with the not so great food. It seems to me that I can't control what I eat when at home. It is that I can essentially hope in the car and eat what I want. I must conquer this unhealthy habit. It is like an addiction that I am trying, but epically failing to break. I didn't eat a huge amount of not healthy food, but that fact that I am craving fatty ass, not healthy at all, & smelling and tasting like "sin", like a crack addict craves crack is not joke. I will work on this for the rest of the week and focus on getting better at the things that need improving. Rating for Eating is 3 out of 10.

Exercise is not happening in my world right now, but I am going to keep as need for next week. Still 0 out of 10. No place to go but up from hear cause I ain't gonna start giving myself negative numbers...lol.

Oh on a side note I bought some vitamins from GNC. The pills are huge and there are a total of 8 of them. Today was the first day I took them and I was hellaciously nausea for most of the morning. Hopefully this goes away quick.

Oh look it's another side note... Procrastination is thy name...got me again still don't have a plan of attack for this week. I'm gonna work on it for next and hope it gets done. >:(

Quote of the Day: Maintaining a complicated life is a great way to avoid changing it. - Elaine St. James

Best to you & yours,

HB

Daily - January 22, 2011

Hey Hey,



WTF! So hard today...rough time of it all day. I ate non-healthty stuff in not healthy proportions. Hhhhhuuuuhhhh...I am not letting this mess of a day deter me. Rating for food is 3 out of 10 because of the unproportioned amounts and the over indulgence in unhealthy food that I consumed with a vengence for not having it. I better get the naughty food monster in control...before she pushes me over the edge and back up in the pounds.

Exercise is still nil, nada, zilch, but I will work on that for the future. Things to look forward to. Rating for exercise is 0 out of 10.

Quote of the Day: Life can only be understood backward. It must be lived forward. - Soren Kierkegaard

HB

Week 3 done & Week 4 has begun...

Hey Hey,

Information in the following order: HB, Chals, H3dz,

Beginning of Week 3	313	279.1	219.1
Goal for Week 3	-4	-2	-2
Actual for Week 3	-4	-1.9	-4.2
Ending for Week 3	309	277.2	214.9
Beginning of Week 4	309	277.2	214.9
Goal for Week 4	-5	-2	-2

Reflections for week 3:

Hey Hey,

This week had a lot of missteps, but I handled it a lot better and my scale is still irritating me, but I am over that too. I think that I am getting better at not being so hard on myself if I trip up I mean everyone makes mistakes and it took me a lot of year to put on all this weight, so it won't just disappear in 6 months. Slow, but steady is how I am playing this journey for now. Tomorrow may bering many surprises. We shall have to see.

Live, Love, & Laugh...Often,

HB

How ya doooin yall, ‘

So this week was not the best week. I have finals for school coming up and tests at least twice a day at school. I’m finding it hard to find time to squeeze in exercise for the day with all the other things on my plate. I still tried to increase my intake with water but at times. But although finals aren’t done until Feb. 4 and a new phase starts I'm going to still portion my meals correctly. Sooo until next week. Hopefully it's better.

Peeeeeeeace,

Chals

Holaaaaaaa,

Okay so I did bad again this week. I still haven’t mastered the art of having a well balanced life. Its pretty hard when you have an overly energetic three year old, a 40 hour a week job, and three college courses. But I am determined to do it. Also we're having a biggest loser competition at work with the incentive that each member of the winning team gets 100 dollars. So I cont want to let my team at work down, my fellow weight losers at home down, or myself down. So my mind set for this week is, DETERMINED. I’m hoping to try to eat healthier with fever “trip days”, drink more water, and get more active.

So until next week...keep it movin' & keep on losin'!!!

H3dz!!

Daily - January 21, 2011

Hey Hey,

Eating today went fine. Again with the to tired to pack lunch issue. I need to make the afternoon before since as soon as the sun goes down I kinda want to chill and become tired. Eating today was all that difficult. I mentally feel better. I am gonna come up with my plan this weekend...I am not gonna procrastinate...I am not gonna procrastinate...I am not gonna procrastinate...I am not gonna procrastinate...I am not gonna procrastinate...I am not gonna procrastinate. Maybe if I say it enough I'll actually achieve it. Although that theory is backwards from the secret.

You can by pass this if you aren't interested in What I ate: (B=two eggs, 2 thin strips of bacon, and one slice of whole wheat bread with a little butter. L= Half a plate of Chicken fired noodles with vegetables. D= 1/2 a serving of Soybeans & Grapes (weird I know but it is what I wanted to eat kinda...)

Exercise is still in the works, and I am still not beating myself up about that fact which is a great change for me.

I'd rate my eating at 6 out of 10 because I was full at the 30% of the half of those fried noodles but still ate them. Gotta get a grip on that quitting when I am full even when the food tastes sooo gooood! Exercise is rated at at 0 out of 10 cause I am still working on coming up with a plan.

Quote of the Day: It is not necessary to change. Survival is not mandatory. ~W. Edwards Deming

It brings a smile to my face and warmth to my soul that people are truly cheering my journey on...A big THANK YOU to all those who sincerely wish me the best.

And it may seem like it is all in my head but I have had and still have these friends (sad but true) who smile to my face then behind my back hope I fail or don't change because if they can't then no one should...I have a smile for them too...cause regardless of your negative wishes...I am gonna keep pushing not for anyone else, but for myself.

Live, Love, & Laugh...Often,

HB

Daily - January 20, 2011

Hey Hey,

Today I didn't pack a lunch or much of a lunch. I was tired and didn't pack it the night before, so the quickest thing is for me to shove fruit and cottage cheese in a plastic back and eat that through the day. So it was grapes (b), pineapple & cottage cheese (s), apple & cottage cheese (lunch), and then I went out to dinner with my cousin, or rather she took me to dinner for my birthday which is sort of a tradition since this is the same thing we did last year of course with us the dinner must be two or so weeks from my actual birthday though...lol.

My cousin...She is a busy girl, so it is understandable. Peoples got lots of things to do...I understand that better than most people do. So we ate at spaghetti factory at Ward. I ate my salad, one piece of broccoli with mizithira cheese, three pieces of garlic bread with cheese, and 4 or so bites of my chicken marsala. I know it was another night of not so healthy dinner, but I look at it this way...that I am making slight changes and that I didn't finish the whole meal like I probably could have done not three weeks ago.

Exercise still working on making myself get a plan together to get moving on this, but it is still in the works.

I am rating my eating a 5 out of 10, because for 3/4 of the day I did good with eating healthy food. My exercise rating is 0 out of 10...curiouser and curiouser...I am still okay with this.

Quote of the day: A happy person is not a person in a certain set of circumstances but rather a person with a certain set of attitudes. - Hugh Downs

Live, Love, & Laugh...Often,

HB

Daily - January 19, 2011

Hey Hey,

Glad to say that I haven't completely tossed in the towel yet. I did have some missteps though. Hhhuuuhhh...I guess it is...Confession Time. I ate Chinese food for dinner and not healthy Chinese food either where most of it is vegetables. As I am typing I have a grin cause...damn it tasted so good I couldn't stop. :P Ohh...and I ate breaded pork for lunch and then ate lemon chicken & fried rice for dinner. I don't regret it cause I really enjoyed it...I should however in the future not eat so damn much. I felt like I wanted to toss my cookies (or rather my fried rice) after that.

It may seem weird since I logically know that it has only been three weeks that I have been making changes, but it sure as hell seems a lot longer than that. Can't blame the time perception on this get healthy journey since I am feeling the same way about school. Weird :/

Exercise has been pretty non-existent at this time, I am hoping to have the time to sit down and write out some plans perhaps this weekend. Hopefully I won't feel like a procrastinator.

Since I ain't feeling so moody and shifty today. I would rate my eating at a 4 out of 10 since once upon a time I could finish that lemon chicken with fried rice plate and still be feeling like I was hungry. I would rate my exercise at 0 out of 10 since I didn't do any, but I am okay with that...for not that is.

Quote of the day: A man may conquer a million men in battle but one who conquers himself is, indeed, the greatest of conquerors. - Buddha

Live, Love, & Laugh...Often,

HB

Daily - January 16 - 18, 2011

Hey Hey,

I am a bit behind and that is due to in part to my mind frame. I have been thoroughly out of it. Not to say I gave up cause I am doing my best to keep pushing through it.

January 16 - 17: At this point it is a daze. Like I was high and can't remember nothing from those two days. Although I do know that I read a lot of books. Ahhhhhaaaaa...a clear sign of when crap ain't going right in my life is when I do nothing but stay in my house and read. I read a lot, but I should have noticed the desperation in the reading...like a alcoholic wanting their next drink. Not a good sign.

Monday, January 17, 2011

Left the house...you heard me right I got up out of bed put on my clothes...my leaving the house clothes which includes a bra cause I ain't leaving the house with out one...don't laugh a bra is a neccesity with breast as big as mine. Went and bought more "healthy" food which basically ran me broke. Huh...the cost difference is daunting some times. :( I feel like I can get fast food for cheaper, but then the health benefits out way the cost...don't they?

January 18, 2011:

Today I am feeling a lot better and moving forward again. I ate healthy stuff all today. I didn't worry myself with what exercises I needed to do when I got home. I am discovering that I have to get adjusted to this a little at a time. Or else I am going to fall into the not giving a shit about it path and that leads to eating what I want and disappearing into my books for the better part of a day.

I am not rating myself today. I will get back to it when I don't feel like I am setting myself up by judging what I am doing. If that makes any sense to you. I get it though.

Hope all of you are sticking to any changes you have recently made to your own lives. Until later on...have a good one.

Live, Love, & Laugh...Often,

HB

Daily - January 15, 2011

Hey Hey,

So today is a bunch of weirdness for me. I tripped up a little by putting on 10lbs in a week. I ain't gonna lie and act like everything was rainbows and unicorns in my universe. I'm not mad that I put on weight what is frustrating me is not knowing what cause that kind of weight gain in 1 weeks time. Was it not enough exercise, food intake, water intake, weigh myself wrong the first time, my scale is malfunctioning? I just don't know. I am having some difficulties figuring it out and it is bringing me down some. Today I ate not so healthy food but great proportioning.

Exercise wise I did 25 minutes of cardio Zumba and that was definitely difficult. I find myself more and more irritated with myself and that is making me frustrated which lead to me not giving a hell. I feel it coming on...the dreaded "White Flag". The "white flag" feeling is coming on, but I am going to keep trying. At this point I need a new plan of action. I'm going to be thinking on it. We'll see what I come up with.

No ratings today because at this point it will just aggravate the situation on my feeling. Getting healthy is just as much a emotional, & mind activity as it is a physical one. I need to get my head straight and quick.

Live, Love, Laugh...Often,

HB

2 weeks done the 3rd has began

Hey Hey,

So this week brings some weird news in the way of our weight, but we aren't tripp'n (now we aren't tripp'n but for about 10 minutes we were tripp'n real hard...lol).

In order is my info, chals info, and hedz info.

Beginning of Week 2	302.1	273.4	219.1
Goal for Week 2	-5	-3	-2
Actual for Week 2	10.9	5.7	0
Ending for Week 2	313	279.1	219.1
Beginning of Week 3	313	279.1	219.1
Goal for Week 3	-4	-2	-2

Reflections on Week 2

Hey Hey,

Yeah you aren't tripp'n that says that I put on 10.9 lbs in one week. Hmmm....it is a mystery. I ain't given up or given in though I am going to keep trying. I don't know how or the why of it but I focusing not on the past but on today and tomorrow. Can't change last week, so I shouldn't freak out on it either. I am going to continue to eat healthy and come up with some other plans as the day rolls by. I got 50 weeks and the rest of my life to get my weight down and get healthy...I can't let one week hold me down. Yepppp...that is my blog pep talk and on the way through this journey I know I am going to need it more than this once, and I am okay with that.

I am keeping my head up and telling the same to my sister and chals. I say the same to you. Some times thing are tough and seem so far out of reach, but one step at a time may take a while, but you'll get there.

Our greatest glory consist not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall. - Oliver Goldsmith

Live, Love, Laugh...Often,

HB

How ya doooin yall,

So this week I did a lot better than last week I must say, I increased my intake of water and been portioning my food a lot better. But I am still having a hard time trying to find the time with working out with a hard 5 days of school and taking care of a household is a full time job, but I still just try to walk around the block at least. It is a bit discouraging for gaining more weight. I think its because I haven’t ate as much as I should and kind of cheated on Friday with 2 pieces of pizza and some breadsticks, if you did not know I am addict to carbohydrates I am a freak when it comes to it. I looooove carbs. I am not going to let this discourage me I am eating better and getting exercise in as much as I can for 45 minutes at least. So this week I am going to eat more smaller meals healthier meals throughout the days and squeeze in more exercise time still increasing my water. So until next Saturday guys.

Peeeeeeeace,

Chals

Holaaaaaaa,

So this week was okay. I tried to exercise but was discouraged because I weighed myself at work and had gained a couple pounds. Also, I started school this week so I struggled with balancing school, 40 hours of work, a child, and still making time to exercise. And since I was out almost all day a couple of days this week I had to pack all my meals which for me made it a little difficult to eat healthy. I tried my best although I felt extra tired this week and according to my scale and I am the same weight but as long as the scale doesn’t go up I’m happy. So I’m going to try better next week and hopefully go down. So until next week.

Aloooooooooooha!!!

H3dz!!

Daily - January 14, 2011

Hey Hey,

Today I ate mostly fruit, salad, and some soup. I did not find myself hungry a lot, but I don't think that was great for me since towards the end I was thinking about all the things I want to eat. What to do...some people daydream and fantasize about guys, girls, shopping, & other fantastical things and what do I do? Daydream and fantasize about food I wanna eat. That's a fat girl for you. : P

Exercise today was non-existent other than my normal moving around and stuff. I really have to come up with a plan and haven't been s great at it so far. It's is a struggle, but what in life isn't.

Rating on Eating 6 out of 10 (I wasn't very balanced)

Rating on Exercise 1 out of 10 (Cause I didn't just lay around all day)

Quote of the day:

The mind that is anxious about future events is miserable. - Seneca

Live, Love, & Laugh...Often,

HB

Daily - January 13, 2011

Hey Hey,

Eating went well today. I packed enough food to last me and I ate at the intervals that allowed me to function through the day with out becoming extremely hungry or giving myself a headache.

Exercising didn't go so well. I have seemed to be out of it today and didn't do as much as I know I should have. I completed about 18 minutes of Zumba Cardio Party until my shoes were slipping (for some reason I had water on my tile floor which made me hesitant to really move around cause I was afraid to slip). Are you wondering why I didn't try to dry the floor. I sure did but I think that my shoes had the water on it and at that point I was throughly over it. I even took off my shoes, but it was wholly uncomfortable to be jumping around in my bare feet. That was the end of my exercise today other than my walking which I took over 6000 steps not including the exercise.

Pause from writing as I try to figure out what the hell is wrong with me and go do some more exercise.

Okay so I did like 7 minutes of Biggest Loser work out and then got more angry and decided that I needed to go for a walk. So I walk 1.4 miles around my neighborhood. I have to really think this whole exercise thing through before I end up sabotage myself with my anger and disappointment. I am going to work on it.

Rating for Eating is 7 out of 10

Rating for Exercise is 3 out of 10 - Not because I didn't do enough but because of my reaction to how little I felt like doing.

Quote for today:

It is not work that kills men, it is worry. Work is healthy; you can hardly put more on a man than he can bear. But worry is rust upon the blade. It is not movement that destroys the machinery, but friction. - Henry Ward Beecher

Live, Love, & Laugh...Often,

HB

Daily - January 12, 2011

Hey Hey,

Today was another day where I didn't eat at the regular intervals. I am committing myself for tomorrow to make sure that I bring enough food with me to last all day since tomorrow is the day that I am away from home until 8pm. Hope I can get up early and prep everything. I have still been eating healthy and portioning my food.

Exercise for today I did the 20-Minute Express Zumba video. I swear to you that I sweat more doing Zumba than with walk away the pounds and just plain walking. I decided to do Zumba because I didn't have a lot of time and needed to do a quick exercise. I am thinking that it is good to mix it up cause I was getting bored with just walking. We shall see.

Rating for Eating is 6 out 10

Rating for Exercise is 5 out 10

Quote for the day:

Our doubts are traitors, and make us lose the good we oft might win, by fearing to attempt. - William Shakespeare

Live, Love, & Laugh...Often,

HB

Daily - January 11, 2011

Hey Hey,

Sorry this is a day late.

Yesterday, I didn't pack enough food, nor did I eat at the right intervals. I really am still eating the right stuff when I am eating. I just feel more comfortable when I eat at the interval - breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner, snack (fruit or salad). When I don't eat the the right times I get a headache and the next time I eat I feel more hungry. I am going to work on that for Thursday.

Exercise for this day was the two mile brisk walk on the walk away the pounds work out video. I am a little worried that I am not doing enough exercise, but at the same time I am proud of myself for doing something everyday.

Rating for Food is 6 out of 10

Rating for Exercise is 5 out of 10

Live, Love, & Laugh...Often,

HB

Daily - January 10, 2011

Hey Hey,

Back to school, work, and home life (which for me can be time consuming). My eating today hasn't been so great. Not in the things that I am eating, but in the fact that I must remember to pack my food and eat them at the correct intervals. I bought this garlic herb chicken breast from Target and I have to say it isn't as appetizing as a mcchicken, but the gh-chicken sure is healthier than the mcchicken.

Exercising will be different for the future since on MW I watch my nephew and TR I have work, class, work, traveling, class, traveling, & then I get home about 8pm. I'm and determined to make it work though. Today I watched my nephew Mr. Dozie. I attempted to take him with me on my walk, but when we got downstairs it started to drizzle. If I had been by myself I would have went, but I won't take me nephew out in rainy weather just so I can get some exercise.

My alternative was to walk down the stairs of my 9 story apartment building while walking the landing to alternate stairs. Mr. Dozie didn't mind. Once home I still felt like I wanted more exercise and I remember that some 6 or so months ago I picked up a walk away the pounds video from Book Off.

In the DVD went and I started with the get up and get started 1 mile walk. It was surprisingly brisk and I could feel it in my legs and arms. After that I still felt like I could do more and I am not gonna deny it I thought about just doing another one of the get up and get started 1 mile walks, but I metaphorically slapped my self and turned on the 2 mile brisk walk. This one really had me sweating and breathing harder. I don't know if the mileage is correct, but this workout definitely had me feeling the burn.

I pondered the fact that when I walk outside I don't sweat as much and then it dawned on me it is because mostly my legs are moving, but with this workout I had to use my arms, and up my pace and follow along. I think that I will continue to do this work out as well as alternating it with walking out side. I will see how it goes.

Keep up all the hard work on your own personal journey.

Liv, Love, & Laugh...Often,

HB

Daily - January 9, 2010

Hey Hey,

Today eating was relatively the same as yesterday in that I don't always remember to eat the snacks that help me between meals. We cooked and went shopping for some food for next week. Man why does it cost, so much for healthy food. Makes a girl want a mcdouble at McDonald's rather than spend 77 bucks on food. It is a conspiracy. More on that in a later post. I plan to work on new things that we can eat so that we don't get bored and want to eat not so good things because of said boredom. I know it can happen because it has happened before to me.

We (Me, HC, & CK) walked today. The same route as yesterday. Foe some reason it felt longer to me. Ohhhh...and no more jogging for me - even short distances. I just don't think that my ankle enjoys the impact of 300 lbs. It is bitch'n right now and asking me what the hell I was think'n. I shall save jogging for a later date.

Rating on Eating: 6 out of 10

Rating on Exercise: 6 out of 10

I hope to be more current with my posts in the future. Wishing you all a great start to what will be a awesome week. Keep your spirits up and feet moving forward.

Live, Love, & Laugh...Often,

HB

Daily - January 8, 2011

Hey Hey,

Today I felt more hungry than usual. I think it has to do with the fact that when I am at home I don't have my food pre-packed, so I forget to eat my snacks in-between my meals. Overall today I think I have kept with my eating habits that I an trying to set. A professor once told me that it takes 31 days to build a habit and only two to break it. I am going to work on re-enforcing these good habits. Now that I have a slight handle on what works for me. I am going to try to figure out what other things I can implement into my diet.

Exercise was a little different. Me and my sister still walked we just chose another route. So today we walked according to my handy dandy pedometer somewhere around 3.6 miles. It took us about 1 hour and 25-30 minutes, but we did it. I am greatly surprised not to have muscle soreness like I had the first three or four days. Surprised but thankful because man that was a deterrent in that I just didn't want to walk with my legs sore. I did though and that is what counts.

Rating on Eating: 6 out of 10

Rating on Exercise: 6 out of 10

Week 1 End - Week 2 Begin & Reflections

Hey Hey,

One week done and the beginning of the second has begun below are our week one weigh-in's, how much we lose, our goals for week one and our goals for this week.

The first set is mine, second is CK, and the third is HC:

Beginning of Week 1	324.1	281.1	222.6
Goal for Week 1	-4	-2	-2
Actual for Week 1	22	7.7	3.5
Ending for Week 1	302.1	273.4	219.1
Beginning of Week 2	302.1	273.4	219.1
Goal for Week 2	-5	-3	-2

My Reflection on Week 1:

I feel really happy that I lost so much. It was a lot of hard work, but I plan to keep doing the best that I can to push myself, and to keep losing weight. More water, more walking, and keep eating the right food and at the right intervals.

CK Reflection on Week 1:

How ya doooin yall,

Overall this week my weight loss journey has been better than I expected. At first I was skeptical in even trying to lose just 2 pounds. I thought that running and strenuous exercise would work but just walking 3 times a day at least seemed to help the best. My eating habits have improved but I still need to work on portion control and my water intake. I was inspired by looking at old clothes I used to fit and by looking at magazines of clothes that I am determined to fit one day. My next goal is to loose 3 pounds, intake much more water, and still keep up with walking for at least 45 mins at least 3 times a week. After this week I feel really good now knowing that I met my goal and is still very determine to meet the next weeks goal.

Peeeeeeeace,

CK

Reflection from HC to be added at another time. Sorry.

Hope everyone had a great week and are working hard on their individual journey's.

Live, Love, & Laugh...Often,

HB